Deji - Deji Volume 162 - Love. Ai. Liebe

30th of June

Dedicating this post to Someone out there. To the 2 someones~ I'll go on with a story first.

There was this girl. Her name is Emma. She always believed that she won't have a first love since the last 3 guys she fall for, she failed to have them as boyfriends. So she stopped searching and started to wait.

Miracle happened when this guy Louise came to her Life. She was totally in love. They were totally in love. It was her first love so she trusted this guy, gave everything to him and love him ~

But it was a tough love. This guy's a playboy. He flirts around without the girl's knowledge. They've broken up since the guy cannot stand the girl's bossy attitude. The girl, deep down, had her first heart-broken.

The guy vowed to the girl many times, asked the girl to wait for him. For a month, for a year, she has been waiting. She has been Waiting all Along~

Then, they were finally together, but they didn't announce their status. Deep down inside the girl thinks, if things aren't stable, they are afraid to announce.

But 2 Days later, the guy went attached to another girl Carla. Second heart broken Emma got. She never had asthma before this, but she was gasping for air while crying for 2 weeks.

1 month

2 months

3 months

She is still hanging on.

But That Day never came, That Day never comes.

She's finally through with promises made by him. And decided to make herself forget about him by choosing anger. It's a perfect release.

1 month.

She's tired of anger. She chose to forgive and started to talk to that guy. Awkward talks.

She's still waiting. Waiting for them to be friends. To be like brothers sisters again. To be like last time where she can be happier. Things are changed, she thought, it'll never come back. That Day never came. That Day never comes.

Ah~~ hope she'll find true love eventually.

Then i came across to someone else's blog. He's very emotional. He's been waiting for true love too. But nothing seemed to be right.

Note to YOU: you can find true love. Just don't take time for granted. Things will overturn. Things will change. You will be great. You will be a good boyfriend. Perhaps a good husband and a good father. Take my word for it.

Then, i came across to my good friend's blog. She's depressed lately. I used to be happy for her since yesterday (29th of June) because she finally got the relationship that she wanted. He was perfect. Perfect face. Perfect smile. Perfect for her.

But.

They broke up one day later. no, or should i say. Less than 24 hours. She's really really depressed. I feel for her. That feeling ain't pretty.

I just hope that everyone gets into a relationship that they wanted RIGHT NOW without hurting the others. I just, don't know how to response to the world anymore. I just wanted to see Happy face all around.

Not seeing people

go emotional about something that won't happen

spread fucked up rumours about someone

doing things that hurt the others

feeling GUILTY and everything

doesn't like other's personal attitudes.

The World Behind Our Walls are shining like never before. It's just, you have to find a way to look at the world behind your wall

This is a song from my Favourite Glam Rock Band - Tokio Hotel. The song name's That Day.

Rain falls, it don't touch the ground

I can recall an empty house

You say I'm fixed but i still feel broken. Broken

Lights on, lights off, nothin' works

I'm cool, I'm great, I'm a jerk

I feed myself lies with words left unspoken

(Gonna be okay, gonna be okay, one day, one day)

That day never came, that day never comes

I'm not lettin' go, I keep hangin' on

Everybody says that time heals the pain

I've been waitin' forever, that day never came

You said I'd be comin' home

They said he's fine left alone

The screams in my head

I keep them a Secret, a Secret

Doctors and your Promises

Psychics, healers, I've seen the best

Whatever they sell, sure know how to deal it

(Gonna be okay, gonna be okay, one day, one day)

That day never came, that day never comes

I'm not lettin' go, I keep hangin' on

Everybody says that time heals the pain

I've been waitin' forever, that day never came

(Gonna be okay, gonna be okay, one day)

That day never came, that day never comes

I'm not lettin' go, I keep hangin' on

Everybody says that time heals the pain

I've been waiting forever, that day never came

That day never came.

I'd give this song to those who waited for Love, but it never comes around. It's just... so hard to tell~

Deji - Deji Volume 161 - My Day in Cafeteria

29th of June

I've been eating a lot lately. Eating here and there... damn... see food? BUY~ then munch nom nom nom~ oh gosh... maybe because i am so anorexic, so i don't have to care much about my diet or getting fat or anything... (no offence ladies) ... natural size 2 people~

um.. i went to Block G Cafeteria to meet with Peifeng Poufessor and John~ and i was like... i wanted to eat stuffs again.. for god sakes i ate FRIED stuff... people, i don't eat fried stuff (potatoes the only exception)

i bought myself a carton of milk and i wasn't fulfilled... i needed something else to eat~!!!

then i bought myself an egg tart... i went to the counter.

the woman standing there, she didn't speak.. she just gave me the "1 dollar" gesture .. i pretended i didn't hear, i just needed to listen to something.. she said "1 dollar"

oh~

i took the 1 dollar note out (probably in the worst condition one) and asked "i need a plate"

the woman said "you need a plate for what?"

i said "i use forks and spoons while eating tarts"

she looked around and pointed somewhere behind my bag...

"take those plastic bags and put your tart on top"

shit you... that's what you call hygiene huh?

i took two instead because of hygiene purpose, gave her an unfriendly smile and left~

i sat down, complain to my friends... not for long the lady came and say "I ASKED YOU TO TAKE ONE PLASTIC BAG, NOT TWO"

i was like looking at her... speechless...

then poufessor said "you told her to take plastic bag since you're not getting her a plate"

then she replied "i told her to take one, not two"

FUCK YOU~! you didn't even mention numbers of plastic bag that i could take... thanks for making up stories, i am done listening to your lies.

i have a scheme...

"hey guys, you guys should leave the plates here and let her keep the plates. but if you guys afraid if that woman calls you back to collect the plates...?"

but they agreed to do it...

and so i took off from my chair... walked right out...

the woman shouted "LIANG ZAI, KEEP YOUR PLATES~!"

i walked right out with my nose in the air... ah~! first time i broke the law~

Deji - Deji Volume 160 - World Cup and my Happiness

29th of June

Speeaking of Monday... We all HATE mondays right? For example, recently my Facebook friends, they posted like mad releasing their anger just because of a freakin' Monday.~ Yeap, Monday is the most hated Day of the week..

ah~ fine with me... 29th of June (which is a monday) is giving me endless of happiness... When the clock strikes 12... My Facebook peeps kept on Posting

"England, bungkus nasi lemak, balik rumah" (if they are in Malaysia i would say that to Rooney, rub something on his face~

"England R.I.P"

"see you in 4 years England"

all England England England...

it's not that i don't support England... i do respect England. I speak English don't I? But sorry, When it comes to Deutschland, England is nothing to me... ngek ngek~~~

but i was happy for Germany though... they scored 4 for their country while England only scored one. HAH~! i was on Facebook to check result.. my oh my, my friends were like posting results like mad on Facebook... and more importantly.. Tom Kaulitz too are VERY active on Facebook, he shouts Deutschland VOR? i shout Kaulitz VOR~

so i slept

Monday morning... Morning sickness (no i am not pregnant~!) it's just that i am not in a mood for school... freakin' pack today the timetable.. and Tutorials... and freakin' teachers~! HA~!

i'll skip on the classes alright...

we went to eat porridge at night and boy do i need those boozing thing~

at night we went to Shark and after that ...

MAX BREAK for Snooker session... no people, i don't hit balls for god's sake, i go there for MTV.. yea~! i say that alright... MTV~! where they play kick ass musics and documentary...

they were there running around a table, and i was there sitting just there. Eyes locking on the TV... But it has no videos that i loved much. (although i kinda enjoy some of the songs like Break your Heart *or something like that*) i was just hoping that i could see something like Adam Lambert and Tokio Hotel. Damn, didn't the hell they released new videos just recently? i need to see them on PLASMA~!

ah i couldn't stand any longer.. the pill has took me for granted.. and i was kinda sleepy so i rested my head on the wall ... thing...

not for long...

*SO I GOT MY BOOTS ON, GOT THE RIGHT 'MOUNT OF LEATHER"

Well you couldn't see the face of Adam here but the colour proves everything~

AHHH~~~~~~~~~~ I SHOUTED

ADAM LAMBERT'S IF I HAD YOU~!!!!

and Puiyee was behind there announcing "ah ma's Kek Dai song"

ahhahahahaha... gosh Adam Lambert made me smile for the night... he looked hot~!!!! totally rock star... no no... GLAM Rock Star~~

ah~ that was satisfying... it totally make my Day... i've finally learned a lesson

"be happy for the little things"

and i did~!

yay for me...

and the lights are all offing... and i was sitting there as they are all stil sstuck at the pool table..

my eyes were still locking on the screen... then i saw something familiar...

that big fat amazing Chopper~~~

i jumped from my seat..

oh god..

oh god..

is that?

is it really?

IS THAT?????

TOKIO HOTEL FOR GOD'S SAKE~!!!!

ah~! ain't Life pretty.. they are playing Monsoon.. my favourite track out of the Schrei/Scream album... totally look hot... although Bill look hot now but he lost to his brother back then... Dreadlocks Rock~!!!

MTV, you've done it again although the Commercial of World Stage did bring be down a bit..

but i still love you~

Deji - Deji Volume 159 - World Cup Madness

27th of June

Entschuldigung~ Ich habe zu diesem Post~

heute abend ist Weltmeisterschaft~

Ich ... Ich unterstütze Deutschland wegen Tokio Hotel.

Deutschland Felsen~!!!

Deji - Deji Volume 158 - Sicky

27th of June

I have sicky bottle, sicky lappie, sicky mouse, sicky notes, sicky phone and all that have to be sanitized by my sicky sanitizer~ my Life is like Shit i tell you~

mummy called me just now just to force me to see doctor... apparently i found out that my dad is sick too~ aicks.. poor papa... i HATE to see papa get sick you know... i mean... it hurts to see someone so perky to be sick ~

then my sister is sick... WHO THE HELL IS SPREADING THE VIRUS THESE DAYS~!!

i went to Klinik (add names of the Fish Ball) and i sat at the waiting room... apparently there was no one else in the clinic and so me and my brother were the only patient there. (yup, my brother is sick too)

and then they called me name i went inside.

he asked what happened

i said i had cough for a week and just started on the trend of flu~ then he checked on my throat...

first time i sang the "ahhhh" song for a guy like him..

"hmm.." he said "throat infection. Throat they are all very red in colour"

regardless, i LOVE RED.

he said he's giving me flu tablet, tablet for throat, antibiotic and cough tablet. then i asked "can i get MC?"

it's true that i slept at 4 in the morning for the BLARDY assignment and i went to sleep on a couch since i don't want me cough to wake Puiyee up... so technically i didn't get to sleep

"MC? you are not having fever right?"

then he checked my temperature.

"just a little bit heat but you'll be alright. Why do you need MC for?"

"doctor, as you can see my status now and sometimes i DO walk to campus"

"ah~ i thought they have shuttle buses?"

"yea they have. But they fight to get on bus. as you know, if you want it, get it. i don't fight"

"ah young lady, you and i have the same attitude. Never mind, if you can't walk to campus, then you walk to my clinic to get the MC k?"

like shit this.... person~ i rather walk to campus then~

and i will NOT go to your clinic again~

Deji - Deji Volume 157 - freakin' sick right now`

27th of June

It's been years since i last visited a clinic with my sicky look and sipping on sicky cup. YEP~! good old chloe is sick right now. i sometimes rather go on a very pain pain pain stomach for like 3 hours than having fish balls all around the table..

Stupid flu... coughing is god damn enough to drive me nuts, but i seriously hate flu~ i hated FLU SO MUCH~!

because stupid flu makes me ill, sleepy and i've been procrastinating my assignments, from week 2 to week 3 to week 4 to week 5 right now... like shit my Life is...

now, i have to work hard like pack mule right now~ ugh assignments~!

i have to come up with a strategy.. tell the doctor i've been working hard on my assignments for like... Days~!! and then get me an MC for like a day or two~ i would appreciate that~

Deji - Deji Special on my Collection

People knows that i am a freak when it comes to.

ALBUMS

Here I am to show you~

my collection started from the year 2006 when Ayumi Hamasaki came to my Life.

From Left:

Ayumi Hamasaki - (miss)understood

Ayumi Hamasaki - Secret

Ayumi Hamasaki - A BEST 2 -BLACK-

Ayumi Hamasaki - A BEST 2 -WHITE-

Ayumi Hamasaki - GUILTY

Ayumi Hamasaki - NEXT LEVEL

Ayumi Hamasaki - Rock'n'Roll Circus

Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment

Beyonce - I Am... Sasha Fierce

Tokio Hotel - Humanoid

ah~ boy do i feel great~ oh yeah~! Albums i bought this year~!

Deji - Deji Volume 155 - Happy Day~!

26th of June

If i still have my original voice today, i'd sing "Oh Happy Day~!" all day long without stopping~!

i woke up at about 9.30 in the morning... i couldn't believe that i switched off my alarm and went back to sleep again.. luckily my bossy housemates woke up and made Noise outside like shit~! so i woke up at GENAU 11 in the morning... luckily Puiyee hasn't come so i was in the right time to make me a cup of coffee~! yay my happy morning...

Puiyee suddenly fetched me out in the middle of the morning and we went for an early lunch at Long Fung Kuk~ aicks~ ate Chicken Rice again... not really a big fan of it already, i myself also don't really know why~

um~ after that we went to Ipoh Parade straight... half way i was like... seriously, like someone tickled me from inside the throat.. damn shit i had no water, no sweets for sore throat... it was all like damn shit... but something made me really happy on my journey from Kampar to Ipoh... Puiyee ripped a Tokio Hotel song ... Lass Uns Laufen (World Behind My Wall) into her CD and i kinda enjoyed it while coughing my lungs out~

AND SO~!

we reached to Ipoh Parade.. first we went around to 5G to see some Computer tech tech stuffs... sorry i am not that.... those kind of tech geeks so i was setting my mind on getting albums... every of the CD shops i've been, i have to sniff around to see whether there's albums of Tokio Hotel's..

like shit they don't have any..

i mean, don't get me wrong... they have a lot ~! MALAYSIAN VERSION~!!!

i looked at the back of the CD, i saw...

Most of the English versions songs, but NO DELUXE VERSION for god's sake... after Tokio Hotel first released their second English studio album, Humanoid... they added a few extra songs and THEN released the Deluxe version... That Day, Phantomrider, Alien (english version, although i prefer the German version better) and Screamin'... those are ALL freakishly nice songs... they cut them all out?? NO WAY i am going to buy things like that!~!

ugh.. i walked right out with a scowl then i went to Popular... like shit too they sold nothing of Tokio Hotel.. argh i couldn't wait any longer... there's only a place left, SPEEDY. my heart was thumping really fast... what if they sold off everything? it has been nearly a year after they released the album, only know i discovered the beauty of Glam Music...

like shit i was in Hip Hop Arena, feeling a little sicky, i was really afraid that i couldn't get a hold of the Humanoid CD...

then my friends went to see the car exhibition and there was like CARs around.. yea i wasn't enjoying but i really got my eyes on Persona, mainly because of the USB hub they have in the car... then i looked around... SPEEDY~!!! i told Linyun that i was going to walk away a while and i RANNNNNNN into the shop...

okay.. start searching for International... see see... look look~

DAMN YOU MALAYSIAN VERSION~!! argh... look look...

INTERNATIONAL VERSION~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went to get it.. it was the last one on the RACK~! aren't i lucky or what...

i straight away went to the counter and paid them... then i saw that they have this little promotional picture on the counter, i asked the lady what was it. They said if you buy the local CD of Humanoid, you'll get cards of Tokio Hotel. aicks, no way you are going to make me buy that local CDs~ no way~!

CDs in my hand... i am damn hell satisfied~!

aicks.. i never thought this .. STICKER would be SO DAMN BIG~! Original sticker is more than enough...~! why do you need to filter my 4 boys' album, they don't use foul words.~ RUINED the whole cover... like shit~

after opening up the cover, i see Tom Kaulitz, i always thought that i would see Bill first.~ but it's a nice picture of him though~!

the spread of the CD. there is Bill~! i dare say the DVD (right side) is a waste... so this is deluxe version? what's nice about this DVD.. they have 3D gallery inside. But i don't have the god damn glasses. and they have.. Karaoke area... if they put Music Videos inside, i might consider watching... but no.. it was only the words that goes like ending credits.

check out the amazing booklet scans~!

totally love this... see how Tom and Bill bond... the chemistry between the brothers really affected me to love them even more~!

i always adore the picture of Tom in this~

there... perfect quartet ~

People been asking: "why bother buying albums? you waste money and plus, it gives you no benefit~!"

actually i dare say i support Original when i thought of supporting mentioned singers or group~ like i bought Ayu-san for example.. that definitely i'll buy no matter what.. but like Beyonce? i'll stop buying that since i knew her true persona~

ah~~! happy day..

we went to Tesco... i thought of buying some Skittles but then they ran out of stock... it was okay because i was running low...

we went to McDonald's straight and as usual, i ordered the McChicken set... then we saw this aunty was using iPad... DAMN~! god damn iPAD that hasn't been released in Malaysia~! what the hell happened~!

Kimban went to ask to have a look see into the iPad and we did manage to get some pictures~~~ there~!

SURREAL~!!!!

Deji - Deji Volume 154 - mute World

24th of June

So let's talk about music shall we?

Music, makes the people, come together. YEAH~! well, that's what Madonna put it.

Music, leads to rhyme, leads to rhythm, leads to songs, leads to singers. Leads to everything that you need to know actually.

When it comes to music, i think of singing. As i put it as my number one hobby (besides sleeping, thank you very much). As people who seldom hang out with me, i lost my voice...

mum said i had too much of Red Wine (which i didn't know it was heaty)... i freakin' stayed away from Heaty stuffs.. like fried stuffs (the only exception: potatoes), chocolate ( i officially didn't touch them)... but i have to put Coffee as an exception... trust me, I AM A COFFEE ADDICT..

now i am terribly jealous of friends around me... they get to joke loudly as they want. SING as they want. Laugh as they want. even though i go as far as laughing, it'll be muted~

ah~ Days... i bought myself a packet of this... tea thing i guess... to "open the voice of your throat"~ bloody hell it better work~!

And so~!

TADAA~!!!!!!

This is the Official Video of Darkside of the Sun by Tokio Hotel. Damn, this video makes me wanted to get their Humanoid City as well..

Love ya TH~!

Deji - Deji Volume 153 - Sleepy~~

23rd of June

Luckily i didn't join the Treasure Hunt of god-knows-which society was running if not i am going to cause a wreck~ i am having terrible symptoms of having cough and flu and ... um... i am now suffering from dry throat and feeling nauseous... and nope, dare not call my mummy about that since i've been very wild in my Days of KL~

god these people...

and plus... Freakin' Dell is giving me problem~ Dell and me... same sickness.. hearing probs... haha... nope... dell is having output problems... whenever i switch on my Winamp. it'll wait a while to response.. but the response ain't positive, it was like "Dell-what-volume-center" has stopped working.. then you have to wait another 2 minutes before it plays the song of your choice.. nevertheless, it plays in a SOFT tone even you are in the percentage of 70 of the volume.. damn shit~

please, let this throat be well because i wanted to sing Phantomrider and Strange so badly~

Deji - Deji Volume 152 - untitled~

22nd of February

folkies... i am back to normal~! yay mua for coming back.. but it doesn't mean that things solved, i am still waiting for the right time since ... well..

yesterday was a total disaster. yesterday as in Tuesday... woke up at 9 in the morning because i had to catch the bus at like 11 in the morning.. oh well.. you know me.. Tokio boost myself a bit first only go to campus... (seriously need to find a day, run down to Ipoh and buy that GOD DAMN Humanoid Album and have myself 2 scoops of Baskin Robins [GREEN Tea prefered])

and i got another news from my 4 famous boys.. they are releasing their 3rd single, Dark Side of the Sun in this Thursday~! YAY ME~! wonder what the single cover would look like~? Warten auf 24. Juni~~~

and um.. i went to school in a jiff, dropped me down at block B and i went to take my ID photo... as i heard from the queue, i heard someone said that they might photoshop our ID card, immediately i think of my flaws and my small eyes... If they photoshop my eyes to a lil bit bigger, i'll laugh my ass off~ but then, i love my small eyes... i got it from my mum... no my dad... no... my eldest brother.. YEAP~! (and they say Suyin jie is my long lost sister~ because we both looked alike)

i went into the... room and straighten my hair a lil bit... tried to work on some face expression... but doing it in front of 20 people is not an option~ aicks...

i got me blazer and ready to rock...

so i sat on the chair. i wasn't even sitting still..

PICCHIAK~!!

wei~! i haven't go on with my look la okay???

then i sit still, tried to smile but there wasn't any curve on my face... WHY SO SERIOUS??

it was fine then... i hope my picture will come out with the... Kaulitz charm...

Microeconomics tutorial.. damn i screwed shit this time... i was assigned to do the demand and supply curve in the 3rd question, apparently, when i am in a group, Automatically assigned as a leader so i have to take the chance to write on the board...

Unfortunately.. i overturned the whole concept... Demand and Supply curve all different~! and i got lectured by the tutor... and yea, i don't like her... what was i thinking? i mean, i was positively right when i was having discussion with Zhiwhey.... but then ended up messing my white board, SHIT~!

so i went back to my seat and looked at my tutor, crossing out my answers like she haven't done it all years~ ugh~

so i asked where is my 3 boys... they were in Block H cafeteria and i went to join them.. damn i haven't eat any lunch.. so this is my time to kill the cafeteria... they were like cracking jokes all along and i felt sense of relieve that ... been very emotional for the past week, this might be my big break.. only i get to realise, how much i miss my Days with Poufessor, Peifeng, John and Jiayi (yes, i do miss you... i wanna kill you in LAN games next time)~!

and um~ they accompanied me to my class... i freakin' went into the lecture class.. you know, when you first step in... you'll feel the air conditioner right? suddenly don't feel right.. WALKED RIGHT OUT~!

i sat outside enjoyed the scenery and i didn't have the mood for education today... i sat outside and suddenly saw Chowwei came out from my class... eh? he repeat this subject?

turned out that he is.. .like hell he was like explaining, how he failed and everything.. poor him~~

at night i was the happiest.. because, i have to be happy of the small things that occurs right? lesson number 35 that was... i got to go out with my friends (puiyee, yingying, linyun, patrick, zoey and jeff) and you know their jokes, they crack it unpredictably.. you gotta love them... although i didn't really enjoy the picture that Linyun mentioned.. hahhahahaha~~~

hmm... i am still waiting for 24th of June~