Deji - Deji Volume 115

29th of March

hmm, it's like it's been a long time since i last updated this dead blog... imma do it now... one angry blog post... since i have nothing else to do in the dark here where my brother is sleeping like a pig and i am not allowed to turn on the lights...

and oh yea... and i wanna dedicate 2 songs to the world's bastards... (when i say bastard, it means a man) get that alright...

Run Devil Run by Girls Generation and

(don't) Leave me alone by Ayumi Hamasaki

check out their memorable quotes


RUN Devil RUN
Do it right you're really a bad boy more curiosity than love
all this time I have been blindly fooled by you

I'll pay you back on day I become more fabulous don't forget
You better run run run run run
You're caught red handed you provoked me Run Devil Devil Run Run

You stealthily eyeball another girl next to me
When i'm not around you're a Super Playboy, raise your head and answer me

(don't) Leave me alone
If you pretend to be nice
Please do so in some other places

Until when are you going to
Continue acting ?

You can't tell a lie
Behind your eyes

Your pitying glance
Makes me nauseous

Swear at me, instead
So that I can't even cry
Don't accept me
Your hands are cold

Your fake smile
Is the hardest to me

Get the message? it's like... ah~! i myself also don't even know what it's like... to have a situation like this... Because i know how it hurts... to be used, to be kicked, to be fakely smiled with, to be F-ed up with... i know every minute of it..

Deji - Deji Volume 114 - oh my

15th of March

Mum called.. i can't believe it.. this is the first time i shed my tears over a call from mum... only i realised... i missed her a lot...

i've done a lot of things that i couldn't even forgive myself in the end... so many things i've done, and mum was the one to make me feel better of myself.. and my sister...

that's why i love them both...

i am not myself right now...

exam's around the corner... assignments due to the next two weeks and i couldn't find the enthusiasm to do them both..

i feel like running away..

Deji - Deji Volume 113 - yea right

15th of March

sorry ya'll blog readers... Days been hectic and i know i don't have much time left... very hectic... so hectic that i could die... haha... Secret mission na... shhhhh

and oh yea... realised why i put on smile nowadays? because i know... living in a world with hatred ain't pretty... so why not learn forgiveness and patience to get through things right? trust me.. i am GOOD in patience...

and so, you guys... i am always gonna be there for you no matter what okay?

this is one freakin short post... muahahhahaa~!

Deji - Deji Volume 112 - sorry

12th of March

I came across one Hong Kong Drama - The Beauty of the GAME... i'd say it's a very good drama... it shows how a woman wanted something so bad, that they are willing to do evil stuffs, spread nasty rumours just to get what they wanted... this is what we call as, reality...

oh well, if you do this sin, you'll get karma... remember that...

and yea... after scolding the hell out of Jack Neo... i was really pissed... i mean, cheating on your wife... not a good example as so many of the youngsters looked up to him...

i am sorry Jack Neo... because after i watched this drama, i know that... if a person did something wrong, it's okay... do it once, if you know it's wrong, you'll change... i know people will see sense through their senses... i know that..

i also know that this world will come in peace and love...

i am sorry... what about forgiveness eh?

as Days come, we have to live happily... laughter's the best medicine... and now i wanted to smile to face the rest of it~

Deji - Deji Volume 111 - that's not a good name

12th of March

Happy belated to my mummy...~ may my mum be pretty and happy forever...

actually, i am here to post something nasty...

not really like... those kind of nasty... my kind of nasty is those kind of stupid guy type of nasty...

yea yea... everybody heard... 11th of March, 10 in the morning... Jack Neo, the famous Singaporean Director had an affair ... the marriage one...

ain't guys stupid when it comes to having affair outside... hey kiddo, you have a wife to make sweet sweet love to, isn't it enough?

having an extra will make you have more problems... extra expenses and everything... and the most important.. you are doing the most sinful thing in this very world...

damn hell.. i feel like killing all those guys who made your love mad... as in like having affair...

Yo, Jack Neo... i was right for not supporting your movie.. i even wasted my 10 bucks on your movie...

and so... i find a reason to hate you...

your wife doesn't deserve you...

Deji - Deji Volume 110 - Life ain't beautiful

4th of March

great... and now i realise Life isn't beautifu.. you can't predict when are you going to die, or anything else... i just finished a book... by Sophie Kinsella... she wrote the shopaholic series... i just finished the Ties the Knot book... and i learned something... you have to write a Will before things happened...

i just hate the fact that dad put me into accounting... i just hate accounts... and now, great~! i have about 2 subjects... almost the same as accounting... and now you see, i am stuck in it.... i hate to go to school right now... seeing numbers and everything... i loathe them~!

and second of all is my grandmama, how i miss her~!

and third that i couldn't do things that i wanted ~

and forth... i couldn't sleep...

what the hell should i do...

and chowyang was right...

I AM ONE FUCKING EMO GIRL.... please meet Weishan... a bitch~!

Deji - Deji Volume 109 - Thoughts on this Scattered Family

3rd of March

that's why i said i cannot stay in my own room any longer... i have thoughts~! geng pun... haha... so i went out... sent my laundry, paid my rental, went to photostat my notes... damn hell i pushed the wrong button... and it came out like... thousands of pieces and i have to pay for them all~~~ i can't seem to Cut Back any longer...

As Becky Bloomwood said, you either have to CB or MMM... both don't work for me.. i am just a student~

okay okay... enough of all those nonsense...

Big family? nope, it ain't gonna be big if you don't look closely... i'd love to call this chapter "Scattered"

We used to love each other, we used to care about each other, we used to laugh together, we used to eat together, we used to gossip together.

but then...

things changed...

i hate it when things come in our way, cut through us... and the main point is... it hurt my grandmama...

i hate to see grandmama gave a nickname to my father.
i hate to see father is not talking to my uncle ever again.
i hate to see my aunt ignores me.
i hate to see people are gossiping in my family.
i hate to see grandmama is sad.
i hate to see egos in my family.
i hate to see how it hurts my grandmama.
i hate to see how it affects me.
i hate to see how it affects my family.
i hate to see my mum got angry because she got accused.
i hate to see that my sister or someone i care about is not with me.
i hate to see how it hurts my grandmama.
i hate to see that dad brags about everything, about my aunt.
i HATE to hear the fact that my aunt calls grandmama "that old lady"
i hate to see that this family is scattering.
i hate to see that we have nothing to talk about.
i hate to see that we have separate times to take dinner.
i hate to see that we live in a different world.

in this very moment, i feel like. strangling someone to death. i hate to see that one person could hurt my grandmama until this way... "that old lady"... please... you are not too young yourself.

my grandmama go your house to have a comfy stay, you don't let her in? sweetie-pukes, look yourself in the Mirror, can you even measure the skin that's growing on your face? do you need scales?

damn, you hurt my grandmama... i will FUCK you till i die..

don't mess with me when it comes to my grandma, i will kill you~!

Dedication - Kevin Chiang

Ignore the Gong Xi Fa Cai...

Kor~! Happy Birthday o~! this is by far the best pic that i could find in your Facebook...

Darling, i hereby wish you Happy happy, have a happy life... do what you want to do, don't give a damn of things that might go your way...

always healthy~ always smiley~ always handsome~ always skinny (obviously take this seriously, your "costume" for chinese new year doesn't do me good)

um... kor kor, don't ignore my phone calls ah... i really miss you de nea... if i free, i sneak down to Penang to see you okay? only if you pay for my vistana bills... haha

i love you o kor... (not as much as Suyin Jie does...) muahahahahahhahahaha

Happy Birthday o Guai Lan~!

Deji - Deji Volume 108 - first day

1st of March

Happy first of March my darlings~!first day of school definitely feels good... i actually did look forward to everything... in class... (maybe get to meet some cute guys or something).. kidding nia..

and uhm... yea... Fundamentals of Finance... i didn't really like this subject... or to say... i hated anything that has to do with Finance... i just hate it... but i am now venturing in it... which makes me hate it even more... and the lecturer kinda humoured me in a good way... when he said "Decisions of Financing" i laughed like hell... he was like "DeShiSHION of FINANSHING" ... it was just hilarious...

and so... oh yea.. someone's birthday is coming right up~

Deji - Deji Volume 107 - yay me~

28th of February

hey hey~~ i am back~~! to Kampar... i once called this place the land of happiness because i loved it here a lot..~ i dare say a lot man~

daddy let me drive the Batang Kali road (as for you guys who are not from Kuantan, i tell you what's Batang Kali... the Curvy road.... i used to hate that road because it made me car sick... Up the hill, down with twist and everything... down right hate it...) well then i took the wheels and off we go... up to the half way of Genting hills....

i had a couple of "near" accidents because the car in the different lane seemed to be like hogging my lane... a lot... i was like WHOA WHAT THE HELL MAN~! it's okay na... as long as Daddy was like singing Sparkle of Ayumi with me... NO NO NO~!

as we reached Kampar, daddy went to get my brother and Siak (my cousin brother) to have lunch at the restaurant near to U City... well, it's like... quite nice... a nice environment... well, then, a lunch with daddy and mummy and off they went to KL for meeting.... i should've followed them... i dont want to attend classes tomorrow... but bo bian, have to attend... i am a "good student" by the way.... *sinister laugh*

and uhm... i reached home... the first thing that i was going to do is to clean my room... i go with my study desk first... and they said... to start something new, you have to throw away all those junks first... i indeed threw away things that i don't need... i used to need it... but now who cares... DECLUTTER~!

then i switched on my lappie to let the song come through my cleaning... so i could make myself even... happier ... enjoying the process..

and OH YEA~! i brought back 2 RED cups from home... now i have three to nibble my coffee with... yay mua~!

um um...puiyee called me, eventually and we went to Ipoh to send her cousins back... and so we went to McDonald's for our dinner...

halfway throughout dinner i was quiet... wasn't feeling very well and i shivered... damn, not the fever... i hate fevers.... i mean, i have my class tomorrow and i can't afford to be sick... no, not in short sem..

i didn't get to finish my drinks and fries and so went to Jeram... to Jiayi's house for the second round... Lei Cha..

Lei Cha is a meal, originally, ... i think it's from Hakka... i loved that dish... especially when you get to mix all kinds of vege with a bowl of rice... and add some soup and WALA~! one nice meal... sorry o aunty, i cannot eat that much...

as though that i was going to Vomit... maybe that burger was like banging on my throat....

um... we went back to chowyang's house... and then to Westlake.. they said wanted to throw oranges into the Lake... (but the tradition was to throw them into the sea right?)

ah who cares... and they get to burn some crackers... mind you, those were loud, when i first heard in Uncle Andy's house...

and so i FINALLY BURPED and i felt better~

yay mua~!