Deji - Deji Volume 100 - MY 100TH POST~!

100th POST~!~!~!

yay mua~! gonna write this post in BOLDED words... i know i know ... it's like... 6 in the morning and what am i doing up~ crazy me...

no worries man~ Jiayi is here with me... chatting with me... apparently the both of us cant sleep~

i can't sleep because my stomach was bothering me... i am sorry mummy, you told me to eat as much as i could but i am like starving myself... bo bian la mummy, i very lazy to cook or go out na~~

then ah~ suddenly felt pressure lo~ i don't know why also... i can nearly answer questions that pops in my head... but then still i have bad feelings... or maybe... because of the caffeine i had just now? or maybe... others?

then.. i was thinking about that sentence again~

haha... couldn't even study... and i stayed up to help Felicia and Nicholas a little bit... then suddenly i saw some white pants walking around...

i got a little shocked at first... then i looked... it was Jiayi with his Lappie... i was like 'what are you doing up? did i wake you up?'

apparently, same as me... he has thoughts too~

my little brother...~ buck up o...

your sister here support you to the max... don't think so much okay? remember, i will be there for you~ no matter in rainy days~

Deji - Deji Volume 99 - My 99th Post

1st of February

First of all, i would like to say, welcome February, the month of exam and the month of Chinese New Year... Popo, can't wait to see you and go back to bully you o..~~~!!

uh... i saw something really touching today... quoted from my Darling Little Friend, YingYing...

For all my kampar bestie:-

Ng Lin Yun:
i wish you all the best in your final..especially marketing.. dun be so panic when answering the question.. just act like normal..how you answer the question at home. If you can't recall back ,close your eyes..take a big breath.. you will know what to write.trust me!

Apple:
Apple, i trust you mou man tai in your final..just.. you must get above 3.5cgpa! i trust you can do it! clever girl ma right? hahaha..as what you usually said..."apple ma.. of cuz know la??" So! i wish you good luck!!

Chloe:
Chloe!!! 1.20! what we always cal you? one dollar and twenty cents!! YOU! AH MA!?!? must get a good result in your final kayz?! you must do hao bang yang giv us see lar?!?! right?! dun giv yourself too much pressure.. later.. high blood pressure loo...Dun make us worry! oh ya! wish you all the best in you final... wish all your pimple run away after the final dey!! LOL DLF!

Chooi Han:
Chooi Han...the GOD! omgosh!Other than god i dunno what word can describe you already. Anywayz! i wanna wish you good luck in your final...Don't always force yourself study when you are tired ..okay? ahahha..

Pui Yee:
pui yee...the clever onee..GOH PUI YEE! clever girl lai.. don't always say "wo bu hui wo bu hui"haahaha rmb the song? wo ting jian you ren jiao ni bao bei~ inside de lyric got..."bu yao shuo ni yong yuan bu hui" you must say "I KNOW I KNOW (WO HUI WO HUI!!!) hahha i wish you all the best in your final..and... after final..pls sleep early larH?! NEW YEAR IS AROUND THE CORNER!! you know lar?! hahaha

Jia Yi:
Jia yi, what to say leh this ben dan!hahaaha erm.. Study hard and study smart ba, see you so stress when you 're studying. hahaha!! come onn! dun let the "stress" push you down! you must push the stress away and not to let stress push you!! i wish you best of the best in your final!!! i trust you can get above 2.5cgpa!! come on!! GOGOOGOG as what you say.. i jia yi lehh? what also ok de....YOyoyoyoo!!!(i will always be there for you)

Chia Yee:
This mad guy..hahaha...what he usually said...aiyaa nonit study wan laa. easy only maa..haha i know... his mind is very panic when the final is around the corner.. He never show out , but panic in his heart.LOL? wish you best of luck in your final kayz?!! don't let your parent disappointed kay?!

Chow Yang:
Emo guy...this what chloe always called him?hahahah TAN CHOW YANG! you very geng one i know. always say bu hui bu hui..but you hui~~ lol.... you are smart! if you get above 3.5cgpa~ i let you bully me till the max?! ahhahhah deal bo? anywayz, i also want to wish you good luck in your final!!

Jeff Tung:
Jeff.. You always support me i know! but.. dun forget..we are always support you too!! And don't post my name at facebook anymore! urghh..damn paiseh dey!!!lol.. Creative thinking de ppl! lol..good explanation de ppl... although sometime you very "fan"..i know you are trying to make the situation "hot" but..you must see what situation is.. okay.. good luck in your final!

Poufucksor:
professor... hahaha i knoww.. you are gonna kill me when i called you poufucksor! you wan kill me i also want to say.. POUFUCKSOR? Don't you think is a great name ? special and creative! hahahhah You! giv me the feeling just like my brother... always help me out on time.haha I wanna thank you for everthing that you did.. thank you! billion of thx!! Other than that, i wanted to wish you good luck in your final! i trust you can do it! you are smart.. but "LAZY" ya ya i knoww lol!!!

Pei Feng:
pei feng...xiao jiu wo!~ long time din sing the song to you already~zombie? dead body? samo got what???wang li hong dai fan shu? wish you good luck in all the subject! God brain that i can describe you! haha dun always die die die... you still got time to study... so appreciate the time la hahha! dun always dota dota! and do those stupid thing such as" wang li hong dai fan shu fans club" ......

Patrick:
patrick! Pan yu wen! KLIP! lol! alot nickname dey! hahha you must be proud of it!NOTHING TO SAY?you aim A for all subject right?! i only can wish you good luck! cant do anything for you dey~~GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!

John Diew:
john...thx for teaching us web page design! hahah i wish you good luck in your final ~ i wil not count you out of my gang! hahahha good luck !

mine is in the RED bolded text... and yea.. i was touched while seeing this... she's being really really really supportive of all of us... that's why i love her a lot...

it's just that.... i miss you~

Deji - Deji Volume 98 - I miss you...

30th of January

Warning first... Emo post... emo post~~~~

i uh... wanted to say that...

when i wake up, i couldn't forget to switch on my Girlfriend first... i mean, my wiffy Lappie.... then waited for the MSN to turn on then.... huala... my internet Life just turned on~!

but then i saw some PM really hurts me ... hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt me lots...

from ~jack jack~

yea and that rings a bell right?

"two groups. why like tis??"

i was like... what the??? i never wanted to think of it that way you know... because we used to be one BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG FAMILY~! and i love them so so very much...

people, i've never changed my love for you guys... i still love you guys... i am there for everyone of them no matter what... no matter this is the last day of my Life... NO MATTER

i still love you~!

Deji - Deji Volume 97 - where's the LOVE??

27th of January

darlings? where is the love? i miss you guys a lot... where we used to laugh... where we used to play together like we used to... a big family.... one big family...

it changes everything now doesn't it?

people, darlings, dears, sweethearts... i am sorry for being selfish~

Deji - Deji Volume 96 - changing my Life back to... the One

26th of January

THERE'S A ZIT ~! ON MY NOSE~! ONE BIG BIG GIANT~! EWW~! i just hate the fact that we have to get through these in puberty. pubescent...~!

haha~~ nowadays been working myself to death to get the notes done... i just have no ideas what kind of notes i am on right now... sometimes marketing, then management (one subject that i could flunk big time), then mass comm (my favourite) and now web page design... they said it's easy since the passing mark is 40... if you get 40 plus in your assignment... VOILA~! a pass... okay...

to tell you the truth... i am not that kind of a student who aims A A A.... but for mass communication, i would... for Mr. Abel and my future... face it, my future is Public Relations...

haven't been myself nowadays... that's why i Lost my identity... shoukori ~~~~ (sorry, singing mood again)

i am sorry people... i am sorry my darlings... i am sorry my dear... i am sorry my sweetheart... i am sorry my HONEY~ i am NOT MYSELF~! it's like... i am reflecting myself through a Mirror and forgotten to pick myself up on the way that i walk out of the reflection. I just, i lost myself in a snap....

i used to talk to Ying all day... and now maybe... studies made us apart and for some of my alter ego-ness of my problems that i am encountering... Ying, i miss you~~~~

i miss Linyun's blur blur-ness also... i miss how we chatted... how we watched movies... how we even walk together and talk about Life...

shit~

i can't do anything....

i am sorry~

Deji - Deji Volume 95 - what ever happened to 2010?

19th of January

hmm~! 6 something wake up to finish my two slices of bread and a hot cup of coffee... and i had a slight headache because last night i slept at 4 something... just uh... did a bit of... well, you know, online searching~

then uh... Patrick came to fetch us out... and Business... aicks.. you know what happens in it de na... the god damn headache is god damning me... so i rushed to canteen to buy a room temperature 100 Plus to ease the pain... i felt better on the head... but it wasn't in the throat...

and i went toilet twice to ease the .... vomit... no, i didn't vomit.. just... well~~

out of the cubicle and did some snaps

then back to class...

teacher was about to announce our marks... and yea... big shocker there... our group my Beauty Diary got the highest mark in the class.. yay us~!

of all the effort i put in, it's not wasted..

then they were talking about this trip thing... i was 70 percent sure that i can't go~ you know our Osmond chiang...

and so... bingo...

i can't go....

because he said...

"you said you miss papa ALL BULLSHIT DE AH???"

thanks dad~

Deji - Deji Volume 94 - Tiring

18th of January

and so.. after finishing my registration... i went Left 4 Dead a little bit... this is a game that made me went through my Semester 1... i was like... i like to stay in my room and Puiyee's room... and while Puiyee was watching her Korean drama, i play them...

and yea... while playing half way... which means i pawned 2 Tanks.. Poufessor said that the Sherlock Holmes is done... YAY for MUA then i started to watch... the problem was...

no subtitles... god damn it.. and you know that Robert Downey Jr. in the English Accent... he might say it really fast...

and so i couldn't catch a word and i haven't had any evergy drink in my stomach.. i fell asleep..

Deji - Deji Volume 93 - MA CHICKEN

18th of January

i know, i never like Mondays... i mean, who does? weirdos who were looking forward to class today...

damn hell, i've been skipping classes like mad today... i didn't attend my Management Studies tutorial... and yea have that...

i woke up early today... i snoozed my alarm because i thought that sitting in front of the computer without brushing my teeth would be alright... Peifeng called me to get up and said "eh, click click click" and i was faking the call... i put on some "I am awake" tone to reply him.. haha

then... 10 minutes later... Puiyee called

"ah... gimme some time..." then i slept back again...

there goes the snooze button... couldn't let things off the hook when it comes to timetable...

then, i switched on my lappie.. waited for my computer to switch on ... i wrapped myself with the blanket... freezing na...

but then... i found something really weird... i couldn't connect for god's sake...

then i put on my sweater and went out...

i saw something ALIVE at the modem there... with 2 laptops...

little did i know, some loser unplug all the line and used it all to himself... HOW CAN YOU BE SO SELFISH~! with my MORNING breath, i just put on a smile and he was like "eh? you cannot online?"

i gave him a smile and went back to my bed... started to complain to Puiyee...

rushing then... i was brushing my teeth and then... Chowyang came to fetch me to his house...

ugh~ finally...

when i get to register my own timetable... things went wrong eventually.... things clashed... timetable wasn't right... no more spaces... people msn me and call me to help them register... EVERYTHING~!

i even have to come up with plan C for God's sake...

this day just keeps getting better and better.... argh~!

and i even scolded the F word in front of my friends~!

Deji - Deji Volume 92 - and the day just keeps getting better and better~

17th of January

And the Day just keeps getting better and better... yea right...

i thought it would be... just until... let me start from the beginning...

yea.. sorry... maybe not gonna write my daily routine here... my brother called me just now and asked me to go over to find him... and he gave me this roller... yay him and yay mummy~!

then, Jeff called and asked me to go out to accompany yingying to have her hair cut... and linyun too... since after finding my brother, i have nothing else to do, i might as well go out instead...

Jeff fetched me with Kimban's motor and off, we went to Razor~

Ying. always... always the one with the smile on her face while getting her hair cut...

Linyun... and yea... first time seeing her having her haircut...

as usual... i like to take pictures of them and blog things out...

while we were waiting outside for chowyang to fetch us back... and just... we were standing outside of the saloon and wait wait wait... just then... chowyang reached and fetched them off...

Jeff took me off and Peifeng took Puiyee off...

just then... Peifeng suddenly chased up to us and suddenly, Puiyee and Peifeng said "Jeff, go a little bit faster, the policemen are behind us'

i was like what?? i saw Peifeng turned left... and Jeff immediately turned right... and little did i know that i was nearly off the hook.. another policeman came to chase us...

i was like what de.... Jeff doesn't have licence...

pretended to be cool he asked us to join Peifeng and Puiyee...

and so i got off the motor and seeing them negotiating...

shit...

then they uh, came up with something 'sini banyak orang tengok, kita tukar tempat'

i asked Jeff what happened... he said he was going to follow them... okay then.. .and i kept on seeing chowyang's car passing by... very weird is that he can find the spot that they brought us...

scheme... lousy scheme... brought us to some QUIET place just to let them do their thing...

fine... 60 bucks gone from us..

ugh~ and the Day keeps getting better and better

Deji - Deji Volume 91 - Spy??

16th of January

yea.. woke up ~! REALLY EARLY in the morning (sorry, in the weekends, it's early~) and i snoozed me alarm again... lazy me...

oh yea.. can't miss the trip again today... Sales in Padini.. you wouldn't want to lose it...

we went to Jeram for breakfast first... and god knows what did i eat... pork intestines... i love that thing especially in Bitter Gourd Soup~

then uh... off we go to Ipoh and the first stop... Jusco's Padini Concept Store of course.... saw Zoey there and she hunted clothes for me..

nah~ her first choice... i know ... it's RED... but then... it doesn't suit me... does it?

but then.. i tried hard to walk around Padini... i couldn't get anything... damn it... so i walked out of Padini with Zoey and Patrick... we went to Soda... i picked out an overall... which i liked... but it never hung right on me..

Chiayee came to join me... and he chose a shirt and asked my opinion... yea, he looks hot in grey stripes with details of white... i asked him to try them out... and TADAA~!

but this picture looks like "hey doll, why are you taking my pictures" and i just gave him a pouty lips~

since Zoey and Patrick went back... i walked alone eventually... yea... went to GREEN Tea mode instead... bought a cup and walked...

Ying tapped my shoulders from the back and asked me to do some shopping... so i followed her to this.. shop... yea... found a lot of clothes to try on...

this uh~ i didn't know why i get this in the first place... humour myself?

Ying picked this one out for me... i liked it.. but granny wouldn't like me with the clubbing feeling on the first day right? duh~!

i totally love this vest... very elegant... but size S is like size L for me.. pass~~~ no luck nia...

but ying chose the dress that i wore... the second pic na~~~ lucky her..

then went to another shop and i tried this dress on

ISH~! I LOVE THIS DRESS~! see, ying and i camwhore ah~
i thought of buying it.... but neh, black black na... my family pantang... cannot...

bored... and eventually went joining Chiayee and Chowyang...

Kapsiao Chiayee said wanna play basketball... we waited for the game to be cleared and we did something... stupid...

there... screen of the photobooth was on... we took pictures out of the photobooth...
this is a picture where chiayee get his hair done..

all acting cute... and Chowyang went siam CHIO at the back...

see... act cute na... but chowyang... phail la... he used middle finger instead... i call that unique... compliments from me bro~!

finally it's their turn to play... there they have it... the scores.. .they couldn't break it~

my dinner... and guess what's inside~
GREEN GREEN is for me.. and there's this Oreo too~ ...

and yea.. we went for a movie.. (again~) the Spy Next Door... it was.... ahem, nice... i couldn't believe there's two actors from Hannah Montana was acting in this movie... Billy Ray Cyrus (there's a shock) and the hottie super bomb from You Belong With Me (this really gave me a shock)...

basically, i know all asians could've predicted what Jackie would put in his movie... sense of recycling humour and funny-ish kung fu fighting with his CUTE english accent...

oh well.. it was nice then~

Deji - Deji Volume 90 - Emoness in the Garden

15th of January

Ma chicken... woke up with thoughts ah~! stuck in a room again... so i opened my door for some fresh air...

uh... beh tahan... went out for a walk instead... grabbed me mp3... off~!

half way saw Chiayee, Jiayi, Chowyang and Puiyee shouting my name... i looked around... put down my mp3... ah~ shoot... my moment of silence gone...

it's okay... it's fun to know that... my friends were always there for me... so i took a walk ..

Professor went to my house and ... Jiayi went to get him back...

"head down, as i watch my feet take turns hitting the ground" - beyonce's Smash Into You..

haha... professor said why i listen to sad songs... but that's what i felt ... i love listen to songs that are nice... or fits into my emotions.. so.... have that..

this is what you bandage when you are not concentrating... yea... i knocked meself into my shelf... see how that hurts...

my brother (no, the biological one) put the cards right when he says Sunset brings one down... i admit it was true.. i never really liked Sunset... very sad nia~

at night na.... i love at night so much...

i get to eat homecooked food... Poufessor was the chef anyways... it was delicious... okay, i admit... i am not a BIG fan of fried mee.. or meehoon.. i prefer them wet... but Poufessor de, damn hell nice na~!

and plus the Hash Browns i had for supper... i love them with 27 Dresses with Linyun~!

Deji - Deji Volume 89 - Don't wanna get stucked no more`

15th of January

I woke up at 12.33 PM... looked at the phone and saw the message icon there.. i love receiving messages when i was sleeping.. then waking up to reply... It was my sister then... she, too, felt weird why the WooHoo movie was in Kuantan...

i saw that message, and the clock turned to 12.34... i slept again... somehow, if i was a happier person... i could sleep back with no worries... but no, waves and tides hit my Life since New Year's Eve.. i couldn't just take the pressure...

then i had a lot of thoughts... damn la... stupid emo ness..


it's okay... woke up when the clock strikes 1... then i did something as fast as i could... to switch on the HAPPY playlist in my Windows Media Player...

then i went to bath...

out of the toilet to blow dry my hair...

ate maggi while watching Suite Life... Suite Life... i don't know whether i should get rid of it... it used to bring me laughter when i watch it... but now... i couldn't even laugh... maybe i watched it too many times..

stuck in a room again... shit.. don't feel like thinking...

Deji - Deji Volume 88 - Woohoo??

14th of January

Exactly a month to Chinese New Year... hope it will come eventually...

and hey... i didn't know why i was being emo (today i know, muahahahaha)... and so i knew that Patrick was travelling down to Ipoh today (but purpose? unidentified)..

In class today, the Sociology... yea, i was pleased to see Miss Siti's cute face... but then... i don't know, maybe things that go around these days made me... so... not myself... i used to have this smiley smiley face on me... but today? i can't really smile... bored...

half way throughout the class... i went out to get some air... somehow i can't trap myself in a room... i have to go out a little bit... but then i thought that Patrick's going to Ipoh... so why not i take his car down? and THEN~! huala.... lonely time...

(yea, explanations to Ying) i know i am being selfish for going down like this alone... but then, if i go out alone, explore what's around, see happy people... i will be better... Kampar's too near for me...

then na... Patrick dropped us home... on the car.. suddenly Ying said wanna come to my house to grab some movies... but then... aicks (i told her to switch on MSN first... hehe)

then Puiyee said wanna come my house for Mani Pedi... (sorry)

i ran away instead...

after packing my lappie... Patrick missed call me... and so i went out...

"do i look like i am running away from home?"

yea, i was... running away... i wanted some peace and quiet... my room was kinda empty... so i wanna go out.... VENTURE FOR .... well, something...

i reached there ... but then there was only a place left in the smoking area... well, fine... just sat there (stupid staff didn't open the upper level)

so i switched on... and MSN was like flooding with messages... and so i broke the news to Puiyee first... ha... can't have em all huh?

then na... Patrick and Zoey came to find me... they wanted to bring me out to buy pirated DVD and for lunch.... delightful... i was hungry then... after packing my lappie.. i went to Parade with them...

yea... since the only rice they have (scratch the chicken rice, i had them like a million times) is the Don thing from Japanese food stall... me and zoey took our order...

then Patrick fetched me back (again) to Old Town White Coffee... AND YAY~! they've opened the upper level... RAN UPSTAIRS MAN~!...

i really wanted to sit in this place... where they are like private area... and couches surrounding... but then... palia lo... they don't have switches lo...

so i asked this fellow waiter where can i get power supplies... he pointed a place which i have a MARVELOUS view of the stairs (thank you very much)... then i don't have much privacy... ugh~

should've asked Patrick to drop me off at Coffee Bean instead...

whatelse? ah~! i've downloaded Akon's Beautiful... sorry didn't pay attention to that song when it released... but the lyrics were nice.. fell in love.. and Leona Lewis's I See You...!~ yay me....

Chowyang finally called... he said he was at the Old Town White Coffee... ah... panicked... i haven't pee-ed since and... i have to pack everything...

just when i am about to pack my lappie... suddenly a waiter came with a cup of sky juice..

'uh, someone treated you a drink.'

huh? i thought... i was expecting to see someone i know. so i thought it was Zoey and her family maybe?

'uhm, huh? who?'

'that guy with a cap' and so he said this and pointed to a direction (thanks for the help pal), he pointed to a direction, which there was like waiters all around WITH CAPS~!

'i'm sorry, i am leaving soon' and i took out my phone, pretending to be really really busy... like i have an appointment or so..

damn hell... i never had this kind of situation before... a stranger gave me a drink... and so i called for help.... and so i thought that chiayee's the closest thing that i've got, so i called him...

"AH??? now i am in Jusco na"

okay... i called Chowyang... i couldn't get him...

then i called Peifeng... Peifeng was at outside waiting for me... haha...

aicks.. those waiters were like looking ... i had to... i had to... give face na... so i took a sip and then left with Peifeng's company...

pHEW~!

reached Ipoh and hunted for food... silly me to hunt for food when the shops were about to close...

and so i ran into Jusco and see what can i get.... bread la of course...

after having my "supper", camwhoring time~!

wow... it's great that they still have this on... i love this movie a lot a lot a lot...

oh well (is this neytiri?)

and uh... oh well..

took a picture with it first... SMILEY~!

















there's a staff's room there... with aluminum door... and so...

take a bit bit...





















3 amigos~!

Deji - Deji Volume 87

14th of January

so sick... so sick of having phone calls seriously... that's why now... for this moment... i am being selfish... i switched off the damn phone...

Life's changed... those i used to have... aren't here with me now..

Guess what... i am here all alone in Old Town White Coffee... yay me..~!

i know line sucks... but i am living it off...

Deji - Deji Volume 86 - Revealing~

13th of January

This is the broken Mirror from the Block B of UTAR. Well, only girls can do camwhoring here. (i know Jiayee did, yay her~!) but boys, out of bounds okay~!

Yea, when you are feeling down and low, lower than the ground, and you feel like you don't have a chance... Bomp Bomp... Sorry, sorry... was into the singing mood...

And yea, i am telling the truth... Yesterday... 12th of January (and they say 12 is one of my lucky number, boo yah~), was the worst day i ever had in my Kampar... i mean, yea... after receiving calls from family... I straight away skipped Writing for Business and Writing for Mass Communication Lecture... sorry Mr. Abel... you know i love you... haha~

Chowyang fetched me back... and so i told him, family problems... and this is the problem where i don't want friends to interrupt... i'm sorry... something really personal...

and so i went home and sat in front of the computer... well yea... i tried to switch on the HAPPY song list from my Media Player... that's just not right for the surrounding... i went for the SAD instead...

then uh... after that... at about 7, someone sent me another bad news again... well, that time was like... 2 bad news in a row (sorry, couldn't share it here. just wanna say my feelings that's all)

that time i really couldn't take it anymore... it's like... one perfect bottle... it has shattered into pieces a while back. Then you are waiting for someone to send the glue over... but the wait was over... No stocks of glue... that was really... in despair... and so... my room was like... very Empty...

i went out for a walk instead...

tried to look high up in the sky and looking for stars... i see nothing...

sat on the pillar and think about Life...

but hey, everything happens for a reason... and yea, it's been a tough road... "I should've known, the day we met. They way you turned and waved at me, i never will forget" But i lived through all the tough things... like how i started to walk... started to get the meaning of Papa and Mama... started to love family, started to go to school. started to meet with friends... everything was tough in the beginning... but hey, they made me a better person i am right now...

so i decided to run away from reality for a while and started to see, what's in it for me RIGHT NOW'

it's not the End of the World, as Ayu-san said... Fight for it... i am now fighting with fears...

Poufessor and Ying went to my house to find me but i was at the lake side... and so they came and we laughed a lot... i felt better...

then i walked home at night... thought that wind blowing could do a pair of sleepy eyes on me... but i was wrong... thoughts are filling in my head...

and so i looked at the ceiling... has it been low ever since? no, i thought too much, it's because i never actually stared at ceilings...

i woke up again and to the lappie... bidded everyone good night and played a game...


Today... i woke up... as usual, being a sister of someone, you gotta have to take care of the siblings right? (and some of you have forgotten the fact that Chiayee is my little brother, as always, put that in mind). I woke him up, and found out that i don't feel like waking up... snoozed my alarm till 9.15, skipped my breakfast and off to school with flip flops...

reached school but didn't attend class first... Apparently Patrick wanted to go to Block F to get something i guess.... I was standing outside and did some thinking again... Problems don't seem to go away...

Puiyee came out and gave me a comfort look and asked what happened... dang, that look and that tone... really made me wanna break down a little... but Chlo, you can't break the spell...

'sorry, family stuffs... but don't make me~~~~~~~'

i was shaken... but i got a hug from her... and eventually felt better...

letting off some burden and i finally felt hungry...

i went to cafeteria in Block G to get a munch... sandwich would be perfect with a cup of caffeine...

and yea... i knew... breakfast... YOU GOTTA EAT SOMETHING~!

then reached school... what a big crowd after all those roller coaster ride... (oh yea, Chiayee didn't turn up, being a lazy worm i guess... MUAHAAHHA)

then i looked around... i see emo Boy in a corner without a word... i went to talk to him after settling the timetable with my brother...

and then lunch... i felt like eating... i really felt like eating... with soup, with potatoes and everything...

but seriously... i couldn't even finish a quarter of the plate... Puiyee even asked whether did i touch the meal or not... i did, actually... but i just don't feel like eating...

mummy, i've lost my appetite... maybe i've lost doses of mum's potatoes.. and so~ huh~!

Deji - Deji Volume 85 - Trip down to Ipoh again

9th of January

Hah~! yay~! finally, the first time i have pillow talk with my friend, Felicia.. i love pillow talk... especially when it comes to something that we can really relate... i won't call us as emo... but i like to give advices to Felicia... i love her a lot...

and so the next day i woke up.. Chiayee asked me whether i wanted to go to Ipoh or not... as i was fighting with boredom in the past day, i decided to go althought my wallet is going on a slimming center... no big deal... they wanted to go to this uh... PC fair...

ooh ooh... i wanted you to meet the newest member of our family... i named him... his name is Chubby~ meet Chubby y'all

the cutest dog i've ever since... thought of naming you Cookies my pookey, but Cookies will always be in my mind... whenever i REALLY OWNED a dog all to myself, then i'll name it Cookies...

cutie pie, he was freezing after Chiayee and Jiayi bathed it... He kinda like climbed onto my lap and sat there.... for some moment he was being very sticky to me... very cute~!

then i went to Chowyang's house to wait for the fellow "ladies"... i was sitting at the door, talking to Chubby...

see those scratches? i seriously wanted to bring him to the mani pedi...

then off we go~! we were singing in the car... but eventually i got really tired ... so i slept... then OFF TO THE STADIUM~!

Crowded huh? But what Jiayi said, i trust... "they made it this small, so it seems like it's very popular and very crowded...." COULDN'T AGREE MORE THAN THAT~!

well, only 2 of us got their treats... Chowyang and YingYing... Chowyang was one of the victims of craving for loud music... so he bought himself a speaker... blast them on baby~! Pay 50 bucks each night would be worth it~!

Ying, too, bought herself a table fan, from a USB cable... a portable too... happy her finally found something that she REALLY wanted~!

then ...

we went for dinner... as usual.. .remember once we went to watch Harry Potter back in July? yea, and the place where i got a itsy bitsy teensy weensy okkie dokkey fear of my name when the NOBLE policemen mentioned my name? yea... that place... we went there for dinner... i can't believe, i couldn't finish every single thing that i ordered... no harm done... i am treating my appetite a feast... shame on you for not appreciating it~!

and yea... when Linyun and me mentioned about the movies... we were excited... because there's 2 flicks that i wanted to catch

-"Sherlock Holmes"
why though? why??
because of Robert Downey Junior of course~! (puhleess, he is the guy that made me married to Mr. RED because of Iron Man... pufff)
and i love detective... take Detective Conan for example, i never get bored of the comics and Conan's (or Shinichi's) idol was Sherlock Holmes... so why miss?
oh yea... Miss Regina George (kidding, it was Rachel McAdams) was in it~! Sexy her...

-"The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus"
okay, i admit.. i wanted to watch this because i wanted to pay a tribute to Late Heath Ledger... by far the best actor you can find in the business... but he passed away ... aih~
and Hottie Johnny Depp....
and it's about an Imaginary World of... someone... (no need to say much)

but.... my dreams were shattered into pieces... it's alright... i know, no matter how bad the movie can be, as long as i was with everyone ... yea... enjoy~!

we reached to Jusco... and what about them? Green Tea Ice-cream of course... screw my budget... Sweet things will get you yourself.... out of your mind~!

we went for Old Dogs instead... it was ..... *coughs* *fixes collar* so, Robin Williams, Mr. Penny... Penny... Penny... no no... it was John Travolta...~! well... i did laugh my arse off in some scenes... and some of the parts made me miss my daddy a lot... oh well....

then uh... we went to McDonald's... i felt nauseous that time... but i wanted to get nibble on Twister Fried... but sorry stomach... can't win em all...

Earth calling sisterling and we chatted for quite some time... she fell on her fours... again~!

aicks... be careful ah next time...

and i never get a chance to take real pictures with Jiayi... damn nia~!

Baby Ying~!

Deji - Deji Volume 84 - Family

12th of January

Thanks to Ying... i felt much better... i've been saying sorry for lots of times, but never actually change it to "I'll Never Do It Ever Again". I've been taking Days for granted because i always knew time would wash things away. But silly me, i was wrong. I wanted to be strong, for my family.

Dad, i would never repeat mistakes that my brother did. I won't do such selfish things to make you worry. This I promise you. And Dad, i know, Promise is a big word. But this i Promise you.

I wanted to post a blog post to dedicate to my family.

And yet when i browse through the photo album. I can't find a single picture of the 6 of us together but i found one. 4 years ago.

I don't know what was missing. 3 were smiling, 3 weren't. I knew this would come to an end. I changed myself since because family was the closest thing that I've got. But broken pieces won't just glue themselves back together. You gotta pick up the pieces and puzzle them back.

Just when i thought changing myself to love my family, thing's changed.

Couldn't say much here. But the burden is over my weight. I couldn't stand on my feet anymore. I miss home.

I don't wanna pick up any calls bringing me gray skies anymore. I wanted calls to bring me RAINBOW.

smile, to face the truth is my motto now. are you with me?

Deji - Deji Volume 83 - what?

8th of January

sorry it's been a long day.. LONG WEEK... there's things to deal with and things to be solved...

happy because i've DONE~! all my assignments and all my hard work's paid off... YAY ME~! i was really proud of my press conference.. stupid ideas that we put in.. argh~! nice ah~....

and so neh... oh yea... yingying, chowyang and poufessor... thanks for being there for me when i needed a shoulder... sorry i suddenly broke down and sorry if i freaked you guys out.. i cannot tahan the pressure liao~ so sorry~!

but thanks... really thanks~!