5th of July
Phobia
there. This is a topic that I am going to talk about. Recently, phobias strike me. Right into the bone. As you can see, from a Good example. I'll direct translate from this Blogger i'd like to call, Soh YingYing.
She's afraid of.
- Lizards
- Falling
- Ghost
- End of the World
- Darkness
- Loneliness
- Dogs
- Cats
- Failures in Examinations
- Insects
- Cockroaches
- Being lied to
- Family doesn't care about her
- Friends doesn't care about her
- Being betrayed by Friends
- Friends are two-faced Suckers
- No money
- No Boyfriend in the Future
- Future Husband doesn't care about her
- The year of 2012
- Unemployment
- Losing friends
- Being Frightened
- Not being Trusted
I myself, maybe wouldn't make a list that long. But let me try for instance.
I have a phobia of
- Cockroaches
- Heights (Up to 15 Level and my legs are Jello)
- Singers that i Support is not about to sing anymore (and that occured to Ayu-san and Bill Kaulitz
- sense of GUILT
- someone came to me and say something that I've done is WRONG *NEW
- sudden darkness
- fighting with others
- Arguments
- Misunderstandings
- Blackouts with my Lappie
- Things that i wanted to get, which ended up didn't get (happened to Humanoid back in Times Square)
- People I care, doesn't care about me (Kevin, do you hear that?)
- Hairy Spiders
- Seeing death before my eyes
- A pile of blood
- Being scolded by my Father
- Death of my family members
- Being ignored by someone I wanted to talk to
- Loneliness (you got that right Ying)
- Teachers with Pressures
- Accounting
- Ghost
- UV rays (that's why sunblock is always on my face)
- Being man-handled
- Being pointed right in the face
- unable to attend any concerts that i really wanted (Thanks World Stage, A BIG THANKS)
Yeap~ but the most I am afraid of is...
Sense of GUILT... Been loads of times i felt GUILTY, like um... When I lied to dad where was I when i was out with my friends, afraid some of the time that he might just blow me off. so the sense of GUILT hit me right in the face right after i lied to him.
So many other things that I felt GUILTY. yeap, over those Silly mistakes I make...
And now, i am afraid that.
I might get something Done, but end up in an incorrect statement
I mean, I've been doing all my work... Tutorials and Assignments.. I give it to the tutor, if the Tutor said some word like "Wrong" or "Do it all over again", a sense of panic will strike me for good... i am just so afraid. Especially Tutorials on Monday, the Financial Information Management. I hated that subject so hard that I could just kill myself for finishing those tutorials that I don't even know what they meant. I suck hard.
I am a dumb kid when it comes to Accounting/Management/Finance/Economics. Damn those numbers. (regardless, i love maths)
I am afraid of humiliation. If i get humiliated in the class, i might sit alone, feeling loss. And Damn myself for caring too much what other people think of me...
I just... I don't want to be alone... I wanted to see a bridge that guide me through... Or maybe someone that I could call my best friend to be with me every Second.
But till now, I haven't found one since I've learned a lesson.
Never trust Anyone but Yourself
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