Deji - Deji Volume 186 - Accounts

15th of July

I wouldn't say that I am unlucky. To be frank, i am lucky... meeting some friends that i really care about.. those who cares about me here... There are the first reason that i am still here... If i don't have them, I might be packing bags right now, asking for a cab and head straight home

Life's like shit right now since i am doing things that i don't like.. see, this is the problem with myself.. I see something i don't like, i don't have the intention of working hard.. true... i hate being forced by someone. Wasting my Life here doing something that i really hate...

I always thought that doing things now is like... My pure talent... I always thought last time, i've been scoring As for my accounting, that made me trust myself that i could do well in accounting... But what the hell i was wrong.. I am no genius...

I wanted to do something that i love...

Like...

Wedding Planning...

I love seeing people being happy... Getting on with their lives... I wanted to be a part of that by adding spice into their lives by planning their big night and say "My, you are the most beautiful Bride i've ever seen". I myself also not sure whether i can achieve my dream or not...

I love my dad... but he's pushing me too hard... And i am here, wasting my time and his money doing something that i don't like... i feel like Screamin' but i am afraid i have to spend my weeks without talking

He makes it easy ...

i asked my eldest brother in the beginning of June... i asked "kor, will you be mad at me if i say wanted to drop out of school?"

he, without second thought, said "yes"

yeap~ kor also one person who wanted me to be a successful accountant... just so you know, the girl behind this cheap specs knows nothing about Cost Basis and Assets and everything like that... I totally have a phobia of this stupid subject...

uhm... I was afraid of accounts since i started working at Dynamic Motors as a little accountant... i shift transactions, see errors, keying in information to the computer and bring nothing back from work... I hated that place so much that i felt like burning that place down... i hate being pressured by doing things i don't like.. i loved being pressured by doing things that i like...

I can't do this anymore....

no ..

i mean, i have to stay strong for my friends... because if i end everything here and go home, i know that i'll have mental breakdown by missing my friends too much...

i can't waste anymore of my time.. i have to work hard for my friends...

Chloe, your name means Blossom... So do something that can "wow" people~

You know you can~

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