10th of July
It's too little too late before i realise. I feel bad for doing something that i did. But then, if i don't do it, i might lose this valuable friend. Losing friend is not an option~
I woke up this morning.. Mummy called me to wake up because i was afraid that i couldn't wake up. You know mum is my walking alarm clock~ Mummy wished me good luck and praised me a good girl since i messaged papa this morning (about 3, i couldn't sleep, lying on my bed... and Demand and Supply curved were around my mind for a little while). Happy birthday~
I sit in front of my lappie... Switched them on but no Winamp... I have to stop listening to songs since songs that i listen will get stuck in my head for like hours... If that happens, i cannot concentrate on my exam... so i'll pass, sorry Tokio Hotel~~~
had myself a cup of coffee and started to get to know the taxes chapter... i couldn't get a thing into my mind... I went to memorize the theory instead... at about 11.30, i walked to Siak's house since i asked him to fetch me to campus... (thanks siak siak)
when i was on the car, i felt myself thumping my lap, or playing with my bracelet.. (i am thinking hard or i am nervous when i do that)... After Siak Siak dropped me off at Block H, i started to panic... but i didn't feel like referring to notes since i might forget those which are in my mind...
I reached IDK 8 hall and i see no Chowwei (he asked me to sit beside him to give him some "tutoring") . i was willing to help... but at the same time, i felt pressured because i am doing this paper for 2 person... What if i am the one to put him into the Black Hole for no reason? I was really really afraid~
um~ when the paper came, i had a browse through.. but the tutor went out of the hall, and the WHOLE HALL started to buzz... that's when i told Chowwei and Ah Soon my answer...
Tutor came back in and i started to scribble the answer on my papers...
I did, i did my penmanship a little bigger so Chowwei could see.. (Chowyang always complain about my small hand writting) I totally messed up my answers, my graph, MY EVERYTHING because i didn't think properly before writing them down...
I did another answer instead, the before ones, i put them as "Draft"
i couldn't finish my last answer since the time is up~ i felt so shit you know.. i knew that answer but instead, i draw nonsense around since i know that i couldn't have enough time to finish EVERYTHING~! damn shit...
tutor said that we should stop writing.. i stopped and chowwei was like..
"do you know how to do?"
i said "i am okay..."
"why did you do 2 copies then?"
"i found out that the first one was in a mess, so i did another one to make it seem nicer"
"oh oh~! give me your first copy!"
i didn't think much, i just hand over to him so he could use my answer since he said the whole paper, he doesn't know how to do...
Then i looked at his paper.. shit... his name... so i offered to write his name for him.. since his name is in his penmanship, his answer is in mine...
we passed up and only ... it hit right in my head...
"the first answer is in my penmanship, the second is his. AND THE FREAKING TUTOR IS THE SAME PERSON"
oh god... panic after the exam. panic after the exam
what am i going to do?
i am afraid my assessment couldn't make it to the high mark. i am afraid... what should i do? What if i put Chowwei into trouble?
is there any night pass that i could break into UTAR and change the exam paper? i don't mind doing them all over for Chowwei... Please help~!
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