first wish goes to my fellow friend D'len... a very cute friend from Alor Star and he's been taking care of me when i was there..~ Happy Birthday my fellow friend...
oh yea... all of you might know, i started my Degree here... i've been convincing my friends and my kaikor that everything's gonna be fine... No stress no pressure~
i was wrong when i first woke up on the 31st of May.. which was my first day of Degree... those hardships back in Foundation are enough to drive me nuts... now in Degree, i think those subjects are going to drive me Cashew Nuts~!
UGH~ um... i got to bus stop early in the morning... at about 8 i guess... it was like INFESTED with human there... i said to myself... no panic... no panic... there's two buses here and i am going to go to the second one... puhless.. i don't fight for places on bus..
then the first bus came... i saw people are swarming up to get their place... i was the only one back there... i sat there and waited for another bus... i thought it was a relieve that people swarmed on the first... but then, the second herd came, MORE PASSENGERS...
i had in mind that i don't fight... if you want it, if you want to win it, you get it. i don't freaking fight~ so i just sat back there... seeing the second bus came... a herd of monkeys were fighting to get on bus.. Slumber me opened up my Sophie Kinsella and look at those fellow people... FINE~! no place for me since the bus door closed... i messaged my brother, asked whether he's going to school, so he could at least take siak's car to fetch me out... no luck, he was in campus...
i wanted to do something that's very extreme... yea, walked to campus.. damn hell i hate sweating... i smelled like a rat~!
and so i started my class... Clara and Zhiwey was in the same class with me... i wasn't gonna feel pressured in my first day... but guess what... things got nasty when i got to a class that i HATED~! i mean, i really do enjoy my tutor, but the way she teaches really makes me wanna kill her... PRESENTATION EVERY WEEK~!
please, to the people out there... i've done enough presentation already... it's not that i am not happy learning new stuffs... but then, things weren't well last year... people used me for assignments... presentations and everything i was the one in charged... then i got to know that i am tired of taking care everything... i wanted to be the one to be taken care of~! i miss my dad~!
stupid miss Cheah... i don't feel like seeing you for another 13 weeks~!!!!!!!!!!
then after that i got to dinner with Puiyee... it was such a relieve that i got to see my friends... i loved them all... then my Maxis got problem... i am having the home sick disease right now.. i wanna call daddy... so i told daddy to call Linyun's phone (since she's using DiGi)
i felt like crying while talking to him... because i told him i walked to school... (and it took me 30 minutes to reach there... not to mention another 20 to reach my block)
he suddenly said "aiya, next week i get you a car kay?"
suddenly i had a thought... dad had a lot of burden.. i myself know dad's paycheck and it wasn't high... i was an accountant back in Dynamic Motor (dad was a manager there and i hated being an accountant) and i am FARKING STUCK with it~
dad has to pay for the instalment of the newly bought house... instalment for his own Vios which the payment due date is for another 4 years... my sister's car... my brother's car... and now he wanted to get me a car? dad, what about petrol? price gonna increase real soon and my fees and the rent is killing you dad..
dad, i know you love me... i love you a lot too~~ but isn't it enough to make sacrifices for us? your getting 56 this year and the age ain't getting younger ... another 2 years you said you're not going to work... who's gonna support this family since the one who's giving back you money is my sister ... can i work dad? can i?
i wanted to work right now... i don't feel like studying... see dad, if i work, you have extra income, i can pay for my brother's car instalment... i my own instalment i also can pay by myself... i wanted to work as a wedding planner.. that's my Life and i know it right now... studying ain't my thing.. i am depressed right now...
i wanted to be daddy's girl forever...
this morning AGAIN~! the bus was over loaded~ i gave up on going to school so i walked back home... luckily chowyang was online so i asked him to give me a ride to campus... i owe him a lot~!
but he's going to QS and i am going to miss him a lot...
now i am here typing this blog... anytime now i feel like calling my sister and deh bao with her... ask her what's right and what's wrong... but i don't want to be protected by my dad that often... i might be a spoilt kid..
but i wanna prove to my dad, i am not spoilt~!
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