i wanna take some of my time out of the Assignment + Mid Term + Studies to write this entry..
so uhm... nothing much really happened lately, if it really is a big thing, it wouldn't be nice to get into my personal Life here... but...
I never sabotage my studies because of LOVE
I only sabotage my studies because of family problem... and yea i know, my family is facing one big problem now... mummy and daddy is like losing their eldest kid, and i am losing someone i loved really much... my brother Kevin...
we lost our smiles because of YOU
i used to play with this guy... this guy is a loving brother to me.. although, you scratched my third grade math book since i did those equations wrong, and although you took away my bolster since you accused me stealing your gum, and although you ignore my messages and my calls when i wanted to hear your voice badly... still i love you...
Kor, daddy never get drunk before this... even he gulped down 8 cans of carlsberg with Uncle Wang, or even 9 bottles of Korean wine with Uncle Andy... he's still strong as ever...
But since... when i got a call from my sister... a call which the content, made me didn't have the intention of picking up the phone, is really frustrating me out...
i hate it when you do this kor, mummy is damn hell worried about you... daddy had the intention of driving down to penang to see you because he misses you a lot... and not even one single call, you never return to our calls... you only pick up calls from your friends but not us... not your family? i call that a jerk...
Kor, seriously you are a jerk... you've affected us... you have affected me a lot... when i think of you, you are just like another Percy in the Weasley family.. i hate you... i hate you a lot... i hate it when you ignore us...
you made me pass the idea of going back for Christmas, the best day of he year... CHRISTMAS~! it's the day that i love to spend with my family... but you ruined it, you totally ruined it... i wanted to see happy faces around the house... but seeing you acting this way is like... totally stabbing me in the heart...
i am hurt to see daddy like this... i can't take it anymore... but what now? i have to act strong because the strongest in the family is gone... forever... i've lost you... i've lost one of my family member...
Feel free to step out, i am not gonna say anything until you say...
because i hate guys who are passive... i wanna hurl~
but still i miss you...
i can't take it anymore... i can't take it anymore... i need a shoulder to cry on, i need a bottle to nibble on...
i want everything to be by my side... i expected you to accompany me, but all you make me feel is loneliness...
you said you'd never hurt me anymore... you made me that promise on the 14th of November, you said you would NEVER hurt me anymore... but since then, at least once a day, you do the same thing... you do the same thing... over and over again...
the space in my heart, it's tearing me apart... this aching heart ain't broken yet...
and you know what...
i still love you...
i still care... i still care...
i miss you
so uhm... nothing much really happened lately, if it really is a big thing, it wouldn't be nice to get into my personal Life here... but...
I never sabotage my studies because of LOVE
I only sabotage my studies because of family problem... and yea i know, my family is facing one big problem now... mummy and daddy is like losing their eldest kid, and i am losing someone i loved really much... my brother Kevin...
we lost our smiles because of YOU
Kor, daddy never get drunk before this... even he gulped down 8 cans of carlsberg with Uncle Wang, or even 9 bottles of Korean wine with Uncle Andy... he's still strong as ever...
But since... when i got a call from my sister... a call which the content, made me didn't have the intention of picking up the phone, is really frustrating me out...
i hate it when you do this kor, mummy is damn hell worried about you... daddy had the intention of driving down to penang to see you because he misses you a lot... and not even one single call, you never return to our calls... you only pick up calls from your friends but not us... not your family? i call that a jerk...
Kor, seriously you are a jerk... you've affected us... you have affected me a lot... when i think of you, you are just like another Percy in the Weasley family.. i hate you... i hate you a lot... i hate it when you ignore us...
you made me pass the idea of going back for Christmas, the best day of he year... CHRISTMAS~! it's the day that i love to spend with my family... but you ruined it, you totally ruined it... i wanted to see happy faces around the house... but seeing you acting this way is like... totally stabbing me in the heart...
i am hurt to see daddy like this... i can't take it anymore... but what now? i have to act strong because the strongest in the family is gone... forever... i've lost you... i've lost one of my family member...
Feel free to step out, i am not gonna say anything until you say...
because i hate guys who are passive... i wanna hurl~
but still i miss you...
i can't take it anymore... i can't take it anymore... i need a shoulder to cry on, i need a bottle to nibble on...
i want everything to be by my side... i expected you to accompany me, but all you make me feel is loneliness...
you said you'd never hurt me anymore... you made me that promise on the 14th of November, you said you would NEVER hurt me anymore... but since then, at least once a day, you do the same thing... you do the same thing... over and over again...
the space in my heart, it's tearing me apart... this aching heart ain't broken yet...
and you know what...
i still love you...
i still care... i still care...
i miss you
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