Imma start my post with a .. Poem...
Waratte nai egao ga
Ichiban kotaeru no
There, i'm done... so i'm gonna use this post to reply to Vivianne k?
um... here it goes...
Sorry because i can't find any decent picture in my folder or your current picture... So since the Masquerade Ball is the BEST i can get, so i just editted it and post it up... It's what i do for those Birthday Boys & Girls...
so imma speak the TRUTH here... yea, i do feel left out when i hang out with you guys... i bet that you can totally see that in the 14th - 17th of August Trip... yea because i understand that since you and Puiyee are best friends so it's not my right to interrupt... i wasn't being noble but i just know... and you can see that how much Puiyee wanted to stay back to hang out with you right? i hope that i did the right thing since you guys wanted to say things that doesn't require my existance so i just left... i knew that since i heard whispers while i was in the Hang Ten store...
No, i would never forget you, dear... you were once my best friend and i used to turn to you for advices and everything... i name my friends as family because we acted like one... we tell each other everything, and we hang out a lot... it's not that i don't treat you as one because we weren't close anymore... but i still care about you... if not, your messages on my Chatbox wouldn't hurt me that much...
See, i am not as same as Puiyee... i can't do things for you guys... i have no freedom to... like accompany you guys to shop, play or even have a sleepover... i can't and i hope you understand that... See, Puiyee has the freedom so it's obvious she is friend enough to do all those things for you right? i really do hope you understand what kind of situation i am in right now please, i beg of you... and this paragraph, i deduct my "friend mark"...
No, when it comes to distance between each other... it's not only one party's fault... it's both... i've driven apart and that's the truth... and did you realise that some of the words you said that might hurt me? so it makes me to avoid the fact that i got hurt and yea, to tell the truth, i did, avoid a little bit from you because i didn't want to get hurt much... so saying a Happy Birthday on your Birthday, i thought i won't get Harpoons from you... but i got it here... sorry about that... i know... some brat like me is like... easily hurt...
i wouldn't ignore the fact that we've became like this... i wanted to solve it but i can't seem to find the solution... there's one solution, i know... is to forget... but i don't know whether i am cruel enough to forget all those problems we have all around and start all over again... no, even if we forget and start all over again, it still remains as a pain to me ... i know i might hurt someone in my blog post but then... i just wanted to write my feelings out... it's a fact...
i know... i do admit that my Life in Kampar is way happier... and um~ the other reason that i felt so is that i can't join your activities back here if compared to Kampar... see, in Kampar, i wouldn't have to get through the Father Barrier to go out... and i really do hope you understand this...
told you once, i mma tell you twice... i won't forget those who left me happy memories... and you did leave some happy memories in me... like all those stupid things we've done in shopping malls, like all those Days we cooked together, all those Days you came over to my house and have a nap... those are happy memories you know...
maybe there's a thing that you don't know... um... i don't like others calling me by my full name... especially chinese... this is the name that made me bad... because i'm bad... yea and i am still searching for the freedom that i really wanted...
yea, i had changed... i became MORE caring to my friends, i became too attached... i became a GRANNY~! i became not that jealous of someone anymore... so i would be honoured if you name it more...
i changed myself because i changed my name... i change for myself... for my own good... for my own future... yeah, i do admit... i am your shan shan, because no one calls me as sweet as you did while you said the word 'shan shan'
people to change... from an infant, to a baby, to a little Rugrat, to teenager.. to everywhere one person's likely to go... but here i say, if i am powerless, i do hope that you can accept the way that i am... i changed... sometimes it's good to someone, and it's not good to the other party... i understand that...
yea, i do admit that they are my true friends... i should be happy for myself ... and yea... i do love them like i used to love you...
no, you didn't interrupt my Life because you are part of mine...
no matter what Vivianne, we are still friends... we were, we are and we will~ i said that and i stood my right...
i don't want another hi-bye friend...
Waratte nai egao ga
Ichiban kotaeru no
There, i'm done... so i'm gonna use this post to reply to Vivianne k?
um... here it goes...
Sorry because i can't find any decent picture in my folder or your current picture... So since the Masquerade Ball is the BEST i can get, so i just editted it and post it up... It's what i do for those Birthday Boys & Girls...
so imma speak the TRUTH here... yea, i do feel left out when i hang out with you guys... i bet that you can totally see that in the 14th - 17th of August Trip... yea because i understand that since you and Puiyee are best friends so it's not my right to interrupt... i wasn't being noble but i just know... and you can see that how much Puiyee wanted to stay back to hang out with you right? i hope that i did the right thing since you guys wanted to say things that doesn't require my existance so i just left... i knew that since i heard whispers while i was in the Hang Ten store...
No, i would never forget you, dear... you were once my best friend and i used to turn to you for advices and everything... i name my friends as family because we acted like one... we tell each other everything, and we hang out a lot... it's not that i don't treat you as one because we weren't close anymore... but i still care about you... if not, your messages on my Chatbox wouldn't hurt me that much...
See, i am not as same as Puiyee... i can't do things for you guys... i have no freedom to... like accompany you guys to shop, play or even have a sleepover... i can't and i hope you understand that... See, Puiyee has the freedom so it's obvious she is friend enough to do all those things for you right? i really do hope you understand what kind of situation i am in right now please, i beg of you... and this paragraph, i deduct my "friend mark"...
No, when it comes to distance between each other... it's not only one party's fault... it's both... i've driven apart and that's the truth... and did you realise that some of the words you said that might hurt me? so it makes me to avoid the fact that i got hurt and yea, to tell the truth, i did, avoid a little bit from you because i didn't want to get hurt much... so saying a Happy Birthday on your Birthday, i thought i won't get Harpoons from you... but i got it here... sorry about that... i know... some brat like me is like... easily hurt...
i wouldn't ignore the fact that we've became like this... i wanted to solve it but i can't seem to find the solution... there's one solution, i know... is to forget... but i don't know whether i am cruel enough to forget all those problems we have all around and start all over again... no, even if we forget and start all over again, it still remains as a pain to me ... i know i might hurt someone in my blog post but then... i just wanted to write my feelings out... it's a fact...
i know... i do admit that my Life in Kampar is way happier... and um~ the other reason that i felt so is that i can't join your activities back here if compared to Kampar... see, in Kampar, i wouldn't have to get through the Father Barrier to go out... and i really do hope you understand this...
told you once, i mma tell you twice... i won't forget those who left me happy memories... and you did leave some happy memories in me... like all those stupid things we've done in shopping malls, like all those Days we cooked together, all those Days you came over to my house and have a nap... those are happy memories you know...
maybe there's a thing that you don't know... um... i don't like others calling me by my full name... especially chinese... this is the name that made me bad... because i'm bad... yea and i am still searching for the freedom that i really wanted...
yea, i had changed... i became MORE caring to my friends, i became too attached... i became a GRANNY~! i became not that jealous of someone anymore... so i would be honoured if you name it more...
i changed myself because i changed my name... i change for myself... for my own good... for my own future... yeah, i do admit... i am your shan shan, because no one calls me as sweet as you did while you said the word 'shan shan'
people to change... from an infant, to a baby, to a little Rugrat, to teenager.. to everywhere one person's likely to go... but here i say, if i am powerless, i do hope that you can accept the way that i am... i changed... sometimes it's good to someone, and it's not good to the other party... i understand that...
yea, i do admit that they are my true friends... i should be happy for myself ... and yea... i do love them like i used to love you...
no, you didn't interrupt my Life because you are part of mine...
no matter what Vivianne, we are still friends... we were, we are and we will~ i said that and i stood my right...
i don't want another hi-bye friend...
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